LADIES ONLY!

I title this "Ladies Only" as if any guy actually reads my blogs...
but really I'm meaning "LADIES COME TOGETHER!"

I've always been someone who writes. I started doing it when I was 6 years old when I would have a crush on a boy...almost every entry, I had a new crush! hehe :)

In high school I started writing to vent. To let things out that I couldn't say out loud and to express myself that I didn't feel comfortable saying to anyone. It became my therapy and as pathetic as it may sound, a best friend. You don't have to censor what you say when you write. You can write about anyone and everyone, all your emotions and secrets. And while developing as a teen, I sure had a lot of emotions.

Gosh all the entries about how much I "hated" my parents and how they were out to make my life hell! How could they be so horrible to me!?

You don't have to censor what you say when you write. You can write about anyone and everyone, all your emotions and secrets.

NOT SO MUCH.

When I was 15 and my parents were suspicious of me sexin, druggin, and boozin it up...they did a search. A good search...where they found my journal. This is one of the ways my mother and I are the same- too curious/concerned not to invade into someone's privacy.

FOR THE RECORD, I WOULD NEVER READ ANYONE'S PERSONAL DIARY OR INFORMATION...I learned how hurtful that can be (I'm like my mother because of the curious part and the invade into someone's business a.k.a. asking too many questions!)

Maybe when I'm a mother to a daughter like myself, I will understand??
Right now, not so much.

They learned everything there was to learn about their 15 year old daughter. And I do mean everything. Things you DO NOT want your psychologist parents to learn about their outgoing, partying teenage daughter who is attempting to win their trust over so getting her license by her 16th bday is somewhat of a possibility. (didn't happen b-t-dub!)

The thing is though, you shouldn't have to censor your personal journal. You SHOULD be able to write what you want, when you want! This was my therapy and getaway from reality so I could truly, 100% be myself. I know I hurt my parents with some of the things that I had written, but they were never to see any of those words!

Also for the record, I was not sexin or druggin at 15...maybe a little boozin but nothing too crazy!! :)

I started this blog to talk about how now the only time I end up writing is to vent about how much I hate my monthly emotional breakdown, bitch fest and cramping!

It's true. The only time I pick up a pen is to complain about Joseph or work or something that isn't even worth complaining about...it coincidentally lands all on the same time each month.

I used to write about beautiful things. I used to write and write and write about how wonderful Joseph was and how I was quickly falling in love with him. I used to write songs and poems. How much I care for my family and how great the weather is! I used to write practically everyday! And it felt great!

Looks like I need to make more of an effort to journal on a more frequent basis. Two years ago that was one of my New Year's resolutions- write in journal everyday...even if there isn't much to write about.

Therapy is therapy. Usually different people have different types, and writing is mine. Whether I'm good at it or not. (P.S.-I'm writing about this right now for a reason ((time of month))..eek...and I already feel better!) Even if I don't have any huge significance to write, I can at least talk about how great life is or how wonderful he is to me.

Or maybe write a prayer like I used to in my prayer journal growing up. It's uplifting and helpful in so many ways.

I started writing tonight to complain about how being a girl can be so frustrating and how much I hate being mad or upset with Joseph for no good reason. A friend of mine once blogged about a term she coined "ITA" the Intention To Argue and I was going to fuel off that and talk about how often I tend to ITA during this time of the month. That's why I titled this "Ladies Only." I wanted some support. But I have seemed to find it just by writing and expressing some emotion...even if it wasn't about what I had intended to write about.

Doesn't seem as if this blog is really about that though...maybe I need to change the title. Shows you what an ADD person I am and how much I can get off track!

Writing works for me. Maybe you should try it to!? Even if it's just about something silly or if you're sad about something. I've found so many solutions in my problems from just writing stuff out. Stress has gotten released too many times to count by just writing out how much I hate something (or the actions of someone)...give it a try!

Once I started an entry saying "Gosh I'm so upset! All I want right now is a cigarette, or a drink...or maybe I should smoke some pot!" and I ended the entry with "I feel soo much better! No need for any intoxicating substance, I've got a pen and paper that'll do just fine!"

Snow Bummies :(

One of the best perks about working in the school system??--SPRING BREAK!!! Yep! Adults getting spring break is AWESOME! I'm sure that everyone could use a whole week off work while getting paid for it and it feels amazing so far.

All last week I was so excited for friday afternoon. Every day all the teachers would say "4 more days till Friday!!..." " 2 more days till friday!!..." etc.

Friday came and I had to rush. I leave the school at 3:30, our flight for Colorado was at 6:15...which means we SHOULD be there no later than 4-4:30. But getting off work at 3:30 and then having to go pick Joseph's sister and him up, making it to the airport at 4 seemed impossible..and it was.

With Austin having bad traffic regularly, SXSW started this weekend, the rodeo started this weekend, and all schools going on spring break...traffic was beyond horrendous!

We finally made it to the airport at 5:15. PHEW! We have an hour to check in, check our bags, go through security and make it the gate--no problem!

All I could think about was "this time tomorrow we will be in the snow!"

We got to the gate and unfamiliar words started flowing out of a very serious man's mouth and I had to step back to try to comprehend. "If you could please step aside, we are trying to find some passengers to volunteer to take a different flight. Once we find some then you will be able to board the plane"

WHAT!?!?

"Wait, we aren't stand by. We already paid for these tickets" I still wasn't understanding how he could possibly be making this mistake.

"Ma'am, this flight has been overbooked and we are trying to find volunteers who will be willing to take a different flight."

WWWHHHHAAATTTT!?!?!? HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT THEY OVERBOOK A FLIGHT?!!?

After sitting around for about an hour and a half, they politely approached us to inform us that we would not be en route to Colorado that evening. NOOOoooo!!!!!

Southwest is not a good airline (I just had to mention this...not much more to say about them.)

They were able to get Amanda a flight out the next morning but that was the best they could do...Colorado became an untouchable dream for Joseph and I. What were we to do now??

Well since Southwest made this mistake (and they suck), they offered to double the amount of the one way ticket price out to colorado AS WELL AS give us each round trip credit for another time we would like to fly somewhere (as if we'd really choose to fly with southwest ever again).

The check that was written out to us ended up being a pretty nice amount.

Do we save it for something responsible (upcoming bills, savings, credit card payments, groceries)??

OR

Do we treat ourselves to some spring break enjoyment?? √√√√√√√√√√

I mean it's money that we kinda fell into...FREE MONEY!! We deserve to have a little fun and enjoy ourselves after they screwed up our spring break trip and his whole family would be skiing while we were sitting on our booties moping around :(

So we went and got margaritas...

We woke up the next morning and decided we would head to the woodlands to go see my family and pick up Lola who they were taking care of while we were supposed to be high in the mountains.

But before we went to the woodlands...we got pedicures-thats right! Joseph got a pedicure..AND LOVED IT!

We then got massages...one of the best massages I've ever had. We headed to the Woodlands and spent a day and a half relaxing and enjoying time with family and friends.

For three years..maybe three and a half I've been begging Joseph to take us horseback riding. I love horseback riding, always have and haven't done it in years. And darn it, it'd be nice to do something different and fun!

So today we went! And it was gorgeous in the texas hill country!! And it was a lot of fun!

oooh spring break!!!